Life is a constant struggle! Been ages I have been just to myself, nobody would know me better than myself. I'm born in different situations. I'm grown up differently. I live, think, feel differently. Repeated contemplations, failing thoughts, feelings, culminating the emotions to realise you are grown so big that you have to be self reliant. Freezed situations around you, constant battle in the mind - juggling with education, profession, spiritual growth, personal growth, handling those people who judge me every moment by my thoughts, by my faith, by my values! Yes because am different for no reason! etc.. How can I be like others when am not made to be that way?
There's no queue system. Everything moves concurrently showing what life throws at you. You forget the day and night, activity and the rest, darkness and brightness. 24 hrs a day falls short pushing one feel the imparmanence of life!!
The Life, Faith, Surrender... how difficult it is to face people who question my existence! You didn't take birth with me? You didn't grow with me? You didn't even try to know me? You don't have to live with me? You don't have to die with me? What for is this constant effort??? God must have blessed me with this life for some reason? Whom do I need to prove it to??
The most painful feeling is to know that parents are grown so old that you can only pray for their well being than sharing your sorrows & make them further weak and you remain a kiddo facing infinite challenges in life all alone. Someone said Age has nothing to do with maturity. So apt!
These difficulties had to begin at the end of this year. Envisaging the most challenging year ahead!! #NewYear2018
Unsure of what's GOOD for me in the new year!
But there's this unknown Power which keeps directing me in the right path. #MyMaster!!